Thursday, January 28, 2010

世界很危险· 你会讨厌吗?

这世界。。。有时让我觉得很可怕。
感觉上,从出家门的那一步开始,我随时都会面临着危险。
妈妈会提醒过马路要小心,因为马路入虎口。
爸爸会叮咛记得要多喝水,因为肾病很痛苦。
姐姐会说小心你的手提袋,现在抢匪很多。
还有,自己也会害怕走在路上随时会有被绑票的可能。。。
或许是自己想太多。
但是,不能被排斥的事实是:
世界并不可怕,可怕的是世界上的人类。

为什么今天的我如此感伤呢?!
我不知道。。。
看完了台湾的著名八点档大戏“夜市人生”, 让我获益不浅。
说真的, 台湾八点档真的是很写实的戏,不但精彩,还带给观众不少启示。
今天戏里的友志问他妹妹:“妈妈煮的药炖牛骨不好喝吗?
这句话意义深重。
友志的妹妹因为爱爸爸,就跟在爸爸身边住(爸爸另娶一位有钱的老婆)。
结果,久了,就爱上了奢侈的生活。想继续当有钱的小姐,完全忘了自己的妈妈和哥哥还在夜市里摆摊卖牛骨汤,一毛一毛的赚着血汗钱。
友志的这番话也问进我的心里了。
其实,他是希望友慧可以想起从前他们帮妈妈一起在夜市摆摊时,一边做功课,一边帮忙洗碗。忙完了,妈妈就会端碗牛骨汤给他们喝。。
妈妈煮的药炖牛骨不好喝吗?
其实是在问友慧,以前一起幸苦不幸福·不快乐吗?
那时,我听到这句话,我双眼泛泪。
因为我体会到一位哥哥极力想把妹妹从爱慕虚荣的世界里拉回来。
但,友慧还是掉头走了。。。

除了分享我自己的感动外,我是想说:
人真的很容易掉进陷阱里。金钱· 甜言蜜语· 感情等。。。
只是,当下,我们曾不曾经犹豫过,“我真的对吗?
今天,或许有些人是含着金汤匙出生的。
有人又或许是贫困过来的。。。
也有人一辈子就是平平凡凡的过一生。
但是,这些人同样都有个共同点,那就是他们永远都嫌自己不够有钱。
在此,我不想多论,因为,我说的是“都” , 是指“全部”, 包括我。。。
现在好好思考(包括我自己也是):
若今天我很有钱,有怎么样?
做了我想做的事,又怎么样?
现在这样会不会也不错呢?
我现在这样幸福吗?

顺便说说。
我很常会开google image....在里面,我会开始收索一些奇奇怪怪主题的照片。
今天,我觉得我真的可以为这些人说些话了。。。
台湾有个电台,它某天就播了这么一个广告:
广告里是照着一些小朋友,为了吸收,在沙漠或荒原上奔跑。有的是用地上泥巴洗手,有的是等下雨洗手,有的则是等挑担子的人走过时,桶子里的水溢出来才能洗手。。。
我是为感情用事的人。。。。很感性。
我着实觉得他们非常可怜,自己却爱莫能助。
这些。。。。就是非洲难民在过的生活。
或许你们有过这种经验,那就是,你没把饭吃完时,旁边的人就会说:“这么浪费!非洲的人都没饭吃,还要啃树皮啊。。”
有时我自己也会真的吃得很撑了,却还是会逼迫自己吃完饭。。。因为,我知道这些食物累计起来,就是他们很丰盛的一餐了。
他们的屋子,只足够他们遮风挡雨。。。。有时,强风来时,屋子被吹倒了,他们或许就得跑到另一间屋子挤一块儿睡。
想想,我们还真是幸福啊,有屋瓦,有砖块屋,还求什么呢?
再来看看:
你是否有过一种经验,那就是在路边或者是在夜市看到乞讨的人或是一些残废的人?
那时,你心里的第一个念头是什么?
  1. 哎呦!快走,脏死了!(看也不看的走)
  2. 好可怜。。。(然后走掉)
  3. 人好好,做么不会自己去赚钱?
  4. 他这样乞讨不会丢脸妹?
  5. 好可怜哦。。。(然后捐钱给他)
还有我漏掉的心理话吗?我不知道。。。
对于心里会出现(1)的人,我只能说,若你觉得他们很脏,那么,你更脏。。。因为你的心很脏。 手脚若脏了,可以洗。心若黑了,就无药可救了。我的劝告:记得,不要嫌别人脏,若你自己都没有颗纯洁的心,那么你的批评只显得自己可笑而已。

对于心理出现(2)的人,你们其实还是有同情心的,只是,不要嘴上说说,试试看用实际行动来证明吧。。。相信我,当你伸手捐出钱时,你真的会很开心哦,因为,那或许就帮那乞丐换得 一餐来温饱了。

选择(3)的呢,这种人很现实,也可以说越人无数吧。。。你们永远觉得要付出才能有回报,你们很少会感情用事的。。。甚至,你们会觉得那些乞丐都是因为太懒惰了,所以才在那里骗钱的。。。(不犯法的行骗) 我不反对,毕竟,那些乞丐有哪几位是真的残废,有哪几位不是,我也不知道。但是,若他真的是行动不便,需要帮助呢?那么你不就做了一件很棒的事吗?反其观,你也不过施舍了一点,就当可怜可怜那些行骗的咯。。。

选择(4)的,我代替乞丐回答你:“丢脸。” 知道了这样的答案后,你会选择其他哪一个答案呢? 这么回答只想让你知道,丢不丢脸不是重点,重点是,你会帮这些需要我们帮助的人吗?

选择(5)的,我衷心感谢你的慷慨。

我曾经亲眼目睹一位小女孩想要捐钱给一位在广场前弹琴的OKU,但是她的妈妈却说:“快点走,不要给他钱。”
那场景就好象靠近那OKU一点点就会染上什么病似的。。。
曾否想过,他们也是很努力在生活着,比起你们,他们的生命历程,若用金钱来衡量的话,应该会更值钱的。
他们让我慢慢发觉,当有些人在嫌弃他们时,会不会,在他们心里,也是一样嫌弃着我们呢?毕竟他们才是看得最多的人啊。。。
我相信,若能够访问他们,肯定可以得到很多故事。

绕了一圈,究竟我对这些人是什么看法呢?
说实在的,就因为我很感性,我也不能肯定说自己很善良啦(因为是其他人评论的嘛),只要我身上有带钱,就算是10仙,我也会给,因为10仙对他们也是一种帮助啊。。。
在petaling street 时,我就看到有个老伯用手夹着拖鞋在地上用手拖着身子走路,不能动的脚(应该是残废了)夹着一个塑胶碗。。。脱了很久,都没有人捐钱。
Petaling Street是闹区,却没有人愿意伸出援手。
可悲啊。。。

请求读者们思考的一片文章。



-蘑菇-

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Post specially for Nikki

The most normal photo of both of us was taken on the day u left... How sad... But, i know that we'll have dozens of photos of us awaiting in the future...Miss you Nik~
Remember??
I wrote a simple card yet full of words and memories for u on the day u left us for New Zealand...
I worked really hard on the card till 3am... And just when i finished writing, i realised that it's the day when u'd to say GOODBYE and we would say SEE YOU!

Never wanted to think that time does fly very fast and we as human, just cant compete with time...
Recalling back, there're many sweet memories together....
Not to mention all, I'll just post the photos we had during our last meeting...
The last gathering specially for YOU~
Hong zai posing with the KFC ah pek....*looking good*
From left: Michy, Jia,Yin, NIKKI, Ching and Val.
Ching and I hugging big bear bear (but not as big as Hong zai's)
Vain vain triplet^^(not the real triplet though)


Me posing with the monster at top floor of boulevard... Ching called this "Beauty and the Beast" hehe...*happy*

Me: I'm the beauty??
Ching:#%^$%@$@% =.=" (vain)
Hong and I posing for Jia Jia...
It was meant to be a cool pose... Me likey!
Us getting ourselves a tie each...
And up next: *a group of girls busy playing with all the toys...*
Cashier: *grin*
Preparing for the following shot...
Me, Hong, Ching, Nik, Michy
Jia, Nik, Ching, Yin
Happy playing...~
Nik and I
A final group photo taken by a kindhearted aunt...From top left:Ching, Michy, Hong, Val, Me, Nik, Yin, Jia.

Knowing that u're fine now is just wad a friend wanna noe... Nothing's better now than just knowing u have safely arrived in NZ....Hope u'll get settled soon...Riccarton High School hah~ I'll be hunting u over there soon...^^ *saving flight money*
Don't forget me ya! Keep in touch=D


ps: More photos on Nikki and us can be found in 8sis blog.
-Mogu-

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Back from kl


I'm back from KL...
Nice place to play and shop....
I bought lots of clothes... (Mum, sorry...)
Haha.. Will not post more till i get all the photos uploaded...
Oh ya!! On the last day of my trip, heading off to LCC-T from KL Central, an English sat behind me....
He's actually a university lecturer....
Will talk more bout him in my next post as I've got photos on him...
Paul, do u mind?^^



-Mogu-

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Back wif computer, but not N.E.W



Computer finally back to my sweet home, faster than wad i've predicted...
RM25 for the repair and now, i can blog!! Haha...that was really fast~ which is also GOOD!!
I've officially surveyed the type of laptop i want and the price for it....
My aim in 2 months....RM1300...for a HP model... If i'd have chosen DEL, it would cost me more.... I'm still thinking and comparing, but the condition is I'VE TO EARN THE MONEY!!
*typing my scientific calculator*

-5 mins later....-

~RM500 per month.

Okay, that would do... I've to work hard for that salary...
Morning, work in aunt's stationery shop...
Night, tuition... Form 4 and 5 will be just nice for the amount...hehe


Afternoon went shopping with my aunt and cousin...
Bought a pair of high heels....yeah~
I finally found a suitable high heels which i can wear (safely) and it makes my leg looks skinny and....long!!
(though the price does look "pretty" as well, but mum said okay, which also equals to YES, U CAN HAVE IT!)

Night, we had a dinner with uncle, aunt and 2 cousies...
For the first time, my eyesight was caught by an Ang Mo the whole night...
He's.....erm...even my male cousin agreed that he's.....gorgeous!! (too exaggerate?) okay, he's....handsome!
I don't know, i'm just quite attracted to Ang Mo who's tall, white(they're all white) and has pleasant look... I just can't describe... mayb cos i've seen much Asians and their appearance in Malaysia will always be treated with an "Owh~ Ang Mo!" expression. XD

The main point is that, they're really having their sweet time in the restaurant...
We reached about 7pm and they're there already.
Then, we had our dinner till 10pm. Before we left, i went to the toilet, which was just an excuse to have a closer look at him...haha!!
As we left, they're still there, sitting and laughing out their way~
OH!! *grr...*
Dear readers, u might feel weird for my unnecessary reaction...
Maybe u will say:
"They wanna sit till dawn, wad's the problem?"
"It's their rights, why r u so busybody on how long they sit there?"
etc...
But...but...but...
I just hoped the guy will walked past our table(quite near to the main entrance) as he left... So, i can have a really close look at him and give him a friendly smile...*imagine..owh~*
"So sweet...."
Cousin: *knock my head* Stop imaginE! It's over~

Fine! Guess that's all for today~

PS: Nikki, hope everything in New Zealand is fine! or perhaps Excellent! Really love u soo much as my friend... I use the photo we taken in airport as my wallpaper and screensaver o...touch?? haha...=D


-Mogu-

Friday, January 15, 2010

Comp spoilt


As what the title shown...
okay, admit that i'm going to live a life without computer for a short few weeks...
Which means..... No BLOGGING for me!!
How should i pass my time like tat?
Hmm... anyway, next thursday, i will be spending my time in kl for 5 days...
Will surely have fun there....my first trip for my entire 17 years....

PS* just finish watching the movie..."Sweet November"----quite okay, though i dun really like the opening, but the director is absolutely putting a perfect end towards the end...

Another Hong Kong movie, "Happy Birthday".....OMG!! This movie earns my tears..... Extremely nice!!! Another short movie which brings great impact on me...haha...

Finally~
Watched "Woohoo~" with uncle, cousin and two dearest sis....
At first we thought(erm, mayb just my cousin) the movie starts at 9pm...so, we reached LFS at 8.40pm...
Then, it showed that the time for Woohoo was "8.30pm" or "10.15pm"....
We chose the latter...
Had a kfc feast... Standing outside the cinema,viewed through all the "coming soon" movie....
A 1.45hrs movie (approximately)...Worth it!!
Funny~touching~joy~
A new year movie from Astro and MyFM casts...


Till then, please long for my next update...



-Mogu-

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Totally Holiday-ing~


It was never the right thing to do as in resting my head on my lil pillow during schooltime...
But, just when i officially have my holidays now, it's also the WRONG to have rested for such a looooong loooong time....
Smells the laziness in me?? I cant believe it!! I've been sleeping and watching movie for 2days....(part of the reason was that i was sick!)
Okay, back to the point....
This week was spent quite beneficially.... Having my eldest sis back to this lil sweet home...(oh, and another girlfriend of hers)
We went outdoors everyday... Knowing that i'm reaching the "Mushroom transformation"(sua1 gu1 to be specific in Chinese).
Honestly, before their visit, i do think that i know Kuching quite well...(personal analysis)
However, they'd completely beat up this thought of mine...
We went to Crown Tower and The Spring on the first day for lunch and did some shopping....
The latter was very often visited by me, but not the first-mentioned.... Then, i just realised that i've not been stepping my feet into Crown Tower for ages!!!
Then, the second day, we went to Jong's Crocodile Farm.
Just imagined how i "wa~ed" and "uuu..." along the way into the farm....Recalling back, my last visit was like.....erm...........when i was 7?!

Anyway, had fun there too....
Then, we went to India Street,which was the hub of Kuching i would say...
My leg ache but worth it! We had our ride on a boat over the river. RM0.50 per person.


In the evening, we went to Friendship Park. To be honest AGAIN, that was my first time stepping my feet into the park too. (Now, know how sua gu i am?? haha....)
Sweet time taking photos with the big Zheng He's statue.

Owh~ Sis had been eating laksa as her breakfast for about 3days....lol=)
Golden Arc laksa is worth-recommended.
7th mile's 3layer tea and Kedondong Juice should have a try too=D (enjoy them wif a plate of cha-kueh would be great too)
Well, not to miss our local food (Kolo mee and tomato kuehtiao and tomato mee) in 3rd mile, Hui Sing hawker stalls.
At night, can try on the food at Jalan Song.

Just about to end this post, wanna express my nervousness for an interview on Monday.
I never thought that i have to prepare a resume for job application at 17...Never!!
I'm just applying for a part time job as a tuition centre's tutor in A+ Tuition Centre.
Miss Lim(the person-in-charge) requested for a resume and my forecast result during the coming interview....
I'm really nervous now... How should i write a resume....
*think think think*
I remembered Mdm. Ng did teach us to write (perhaps, copy) a resume from our Form5 textbook, didn't she?
But....but....*doggy eyes* I've thrown away mine.....
Argh~

Oh gosh!! No nervous, Mogu!! U can do it!

A planning for 2010:
  1. An interview for tuition centre tutor.
  2. Attending Law test for my driving in Sri Aman. (Nikki, my lesson is on 16, but i will make sure i get to the airport to send u....Afterall, i'd not want to make your leave as my major regret for the next half of my life=P)
  3. Saw an advertisement in newspaper, it's a taska looking for a music and dancing teacher for the lil kids.... I remembered how my kindee teacher taught me dancing and singing...So, wanna give it a try too....(haha, saw my desperation to earn money?)
  4. Finally, i gave in to my papa's company....gonna be a clerk there too.... It's just typing letters and answering calls....I can do it....(i guess?? .....ok, will think twice bout it again.)
  5. Chemistry tuition...
Finished watching the movie "She's all that". Nice.

That's all for today...




-Mogu-

Thursday, January 7, 2010

走吧~


又一个朋友要离开了。。。
唉~真是的。。。不知道我会舍不得的妹?
我可是会哭的嘞。。。
其实,我知道大家都是为了未来着想,寻求更好的教育是我们这个年纪,应该要做的(没有其他阻碍的话)。。。
今天,七姐妹(Lilynda不能来), 和hong 仔一起去boulevard...
真的是疯狂的玩, 我们到顶楼,拿着那里摆设的洋娃娃,家具类的东西,拼命的拍照,知道店员们都在笑了,我们也不以为然。。。(反正没客人,这么小气做么?我们还带给你们诺大的笑声嘞。。。)
hong仔还提议我假扮小孩子进去那个游乐场里玩,拍照。。。本来就要大摇大摆的走进去了。。。谁知?

“Children below 10years old only”

哇塞! 我再怎么扮,也不会看起来这么小吧?(虽然身高很像啦。。。×自卑×)

我们为Nikki买了香水礼盒,毕竟她就快要踏入18岁了,今年又没办法和她一起庆祝。。。(嗚~有点哽咽)
所以,就算18岁,我们还是希望我们是第一个送她礼物的啦!(因为她交友广阔,到时才poslaju , 不知道来得及吗嘞。)

不知道为什么,我总觉得自己会很坚强的。。。
去送机而已嘛。。。又不是生离死别,肯定不会哭的啦。。。
可是,每次都很逊!哭得“哭天抢地”。。。
哈哈。。。

帆,一路顺风咯!!


-蘑菇-

Saturday, January 2, 2010

好心的很可怜


真不知我该高兴亦或是痛哭流涕(还不至于啦)。。。

别觉得我莫名其妙。

刚好,这篇文章是要打给特定的几位“好人”看的。。。我衷心的感谢你们。

我人生里,打从我从娘胎被抱出来后,许多人都曾经走入我的生命,伤了我,又大肆的走出去。。。

对于你们,我竟然都很少过。。。

不过,在这,我想大声的对你们说:“抱歉!即使我或许神经大条,或许我笨,或许好听点--善良·脾气好·不计较·大人有大量,但是我也绝不是备胎。。听清楚,就是备胎!”

希望你们了解。

我在msn 里写下了这么一段话:

“I'm easily touched. So, don't hurt me with sweet words. 2010, a new year, I wont be that stupid anymore.”

只有我清楚,我打下这段话时,心里那重重的决定是什么。。。

从今以后,我,或许会因为你们这些“好人” 而开始不相信人。你们清楚自己在做什么吗?你们知道那些“开玩笑”的话对我来说是什么样的痛吗?

现在在读这篇文章的朋友或许会开始怀疑自己是不是曾经对我说过甜言蜜语。。。不要怕啦,我不是写给朋友你们的,是特定的人而已。。。(只有两个)哈哈。。。朋友的甜言蜜语让我开心,但是“你们”的,真的让我开始觉得:

“以后我都不会喜欢人了。。。至少说甜言蜜语的男朋友,我可能都会排斥呢!” (严重了吧?)


有些人,分手后,不能做回朋友。
有些人,则不然。还是可以联络。
我呢,哈哈(冷笑)~
我都不讨厌你们。 我不但可以和你们做朋友,甚至还可以帮你们想想,该对你们现任的女朋友如何如何的好。。。不是我要干涉,因为我知道我的干涉你们的女朋友可能会不开心,但是,你们也好歹不要伤害我了,现在找到新的,又用同样的方法伤害她们吧?!我提醒了,你们要听不听,随便啦。。。

言归正传。

我都做到酱了,你们真的觉得我好欺负是不是?
诶,不对,应该是觉得我好骗啦。。。
“讲几句好听的,她就会相信,感动。。。酱,我和女朋友吵架还有个知心聊天。等我和女朋友分了,还可以追回她。” 你们的内心是这么卑鄙的在想我吗?
我真的对你们冷了。。。
心寒。

A, 你莫名的一封信息:
我还是很sayang你哦。。。你对我真的很重要。

B, 你更超过的信息:
...be my gf....

××××××××××××(说不下去,我要冷静一下)











.....

对于A, 我想说的是:

无言。因为若是3年前,就算被骗了两次后,你说出这句话,我或许还是会相信,傻傻的相信。那时叫做蠢!不过,现在的我,身边有很多朋友,他们会让我看清事实。
本以为你是因为和现任女朋友分手,太伤心所以才说这句话,那我可以理解,但是,第二天,我看到你的fb写着对你女友的甜言蜜语,让我不禁冷颤,“你发那封信息时,不觉得对不起你女朋友哦?”
重要。被人觉得自己很重要,心里真的几爽下的,不过,再看看那人是谁,我觉得还是算了吧。。。A,你现在对我来说是位朋友。而对于朋友,每个都对我很重要,你也是,但不要误会。对你女朋友好点。陷了3次,同一个人,我不会再让自己靠近那危险的深渊。

对于B,无奈啊~

和你隔了一年没说话,现在又开始能够像以前一样互相吐槽,嬉闹,我真的很开心你这位朋友,归队了。。。
请不要再扰乱我们之间的友谊。。。
3个月前,我们通电话,你哭了,因为另一个女生,那时,我好羡慕那女生,因为她能让你这么的痴情。
我安慰你,第一次看到你那么的脆弱的样子。
脑海开始想:你竟然会为了女生哭,而且那还只是你喜欢的女生,不是女朋友,那么2年前,你曾为我哭吗?
结果,前几天收到你这封信息。我惊讶,因为你人就在我面前。
我当时只对你说“不行。。。。。顺其自然啦,以后的事我不知道。”
但,我真的为了你的一句,烦恼了很久。

哪知,2010第一天,你告诉我,那只是开玩笑的信息,不要当真。
本想重新开始的,你却让我的新一年,破了小小的洞。。。幸好,我顺利补起来了。。。
所以,我原谅你。我还是不会讨厌你,但,以后,如果,我是说如果啦,你又发现我比较好之类的,对我说复合的话,我不会相信了。。。就算有点相信也不会再回头。
因为,我相信上帝不会安排一个这么玩弄我的人作为我的终生伴侣。

就像仕部落写的(帮你打广告。。哈哈),我感谢这两位。奇迹,就算酱,我也没有讨厌或不喜欢他们诶。。。×难到我没知觉去?哈哈,不懂。× 就是没有伤心的感觉,只是心情怪怪的。。。

我清楚了解你们不是坏人,只是还没遇到真正喜欢的人,所以不了解(至少这样想,我心好过点)。你们以后肯定会是好人的!加油啦,不要让其他喜欢你们的女生流泪了。。。

我好心吗?是用错地方吧。。。我知道,我不会让你们有任何希望的感觉了。。。就做朋友就好。

-蘑菇-