Friday, July 30, 2010

Things are not running well again

I have no idea why i need to post this article to let people share my sorrow and frustration...but somehow, my heart told me that i have to do something to release this stress of mine...
When it's time to go back to college, i dun feel like doing it...
too many things to cope up...
and i'm still so blur and miserable...

Now, i forgot to pass up the assignments which teacher wants us to do so by the last day of our UPS exam...
Me and carmen struggled so hard to complete it and we succeeded...
On the last day of exam, i planned to hand it in right after exam, before i got on the bus to seremban....
Carmen's assignment is with me...
But once i finished my exam, i'm so excited that i straight away went back to room to pack my things so tat i'll be on time for the bus and i totally forgot about the assignments!!!!
OMG!!!
i just realised it just now...
How am i going to tell teacher?
What if teacher dont accept my apology and reasons?
There's a lot of "what if" that makes me feel like crying now....
Plus, i din perform well in my chemistry exam this time which gives teacher a perfect timing to scold me...
Haiz....

Then, i need to study chemistry, maths and bio all by myself once i'm back...
cos 1 week before the exam, i'm so shiok in studying the topics to be tested only till i neglected the new topics which teacher taught...
When i'm in lectures, i'm studying...
Not paying attention at all...
without realising, teachers had finished the new topic....
Now i dont understand a single thing that teacher taught...
Sigh...

I'm so so stress....

I'm so afraid to get back to college...get back to my studies....
1 week of holidays was spent surfing internet, watching movies and sleep...
brain is totally not functioning...
things seem to be so uncertain for me...
a lot of things to do...
really a lot...

i wish i have more time....
really hope so...
i want to be alone now....
closing myself in my sis room...
can i allow myself to daydream for another day?
please?

feel like crying again....
wanna go home....
dun wan to continue my studies ...
but it would be so irresponsible if i think this way....
haiz....

i need someone to talk to, but he's not here....

Dear God:
It's been quite s0metime since my last misery.... I'm so lost now...God, please lead me to the way You have designed for me to walk through... Please dont let satan took me over... Please give me the strength to continue and overcome all these challenges...I pray that every day is designed to let me grown up and that i have the ability to do so... I feel so weak now.... I need You, Father.... In Jesus name i prayed. Amen.



-mogu-

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

两个月过去了,我还是。。。

一样爱着你!!!

*请受不了恶心对白的部落客回避一下这篇文章*

真的傻傻的度过了我们的第二个月。。。
明显的,吵架次数减少,
爱你指数增加了好几倍。。。
我们俩拥有了我们一起最美好的第一次回忆~
有许多话想告诉你。。。
分开了一星期,我真的好想你啊。。。
黄志渊-----我真的好爱你!!!

谢谢你让黄爸爸黄妈妈知道我的存在。。。
我也希望能在我们俩稳定之后告诉爸妈。。。
不过,前提是4flat。。。、
所以我们要一直一直加油。。。
这个月的纪念日又泡汤了。。。
不要紧,我期待下个月的=)

第二个月的小熊还没上传到部落格,不过真的很特别。。。
我 喜欢。。。

喜欢偷拍我的黄志渊,因为总是觉得他可爱的不得了。。。
喜欢黄志渊穿西装的样子。。^.^
黄志渊,开学一起努力度过第三个月哦。。。=)

~仍在热恋期,不断上升~


-蘑菇-

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Malacca trip

Miss my 8sis so much.....>.<







Tiring....
Dont feel like talking bout the trip as everything seems to be quite confidential...
Anyway, TRANSNASIONAL bus....excellent!!!
never sat a bus as comfortable as this...=)
Have a nice trip....
For the people who u noe who u are:
Thanks...I've a great time too...
^.^

Jerry, stepping into our 3rd month, thanks for bringing me laughters...And though there're hard time together, thanks for not giving up on me...It makes our love grow stronger...Love u...

Together, may God bless our love~


-Mogu-

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

命中注定吗?


有天美文大声喊我的名:“田丽洁!”
可是我没给回应,结果她反其道到反念我的名字,“洁丽田!”
突然,惊吓了下。。。才发现我的名字到反过来念,是: “Jerry Tian”
小黄是Jerry Oei。。。
这是命中注定吗?
开心的发现我们是这么紧紧 联系着的。。。

幸福的是你亲密的叫我老婆。。。
幸福的是你帮我把汉堡包切块。。。
幸福的是饭后,你拿 纸巾给我檫嘴。。。
幸福的是你一直在我一通电话后,就出现,不说话也幸福。。。
幸福的是我可以放心的睡,因为你会拼命打电话叫我起床。。。
幸福的是用餐前,你会陪我一起做饭前祷告,感谢上帝的保守。。。
幸福的是靠着你的肩膀小睡 。。。
幸福的是你说要我一直快乐。。。
幸福的是你的成绩比我好,那么我不必为未来担心,因为有你陪我一起努力。。。
幸福的是你说5201314。。。
最幸福的是有你。。。
黄志渊,谢谢你让我这么幸福。。。

下星期就是考试周了。。。
压力开始上升。。。我对自己真的很没信心。。。
黄志渊 真的很另我骄傲。。。
很开心有他。。。
也很庆幸。。。
本小姐小小的惭愧,因为成绩没他好。。。
这次的pre-ups test, 他的physics拿了39/40。。。
数学,48/50。。。
厉害到~
*骄傲*
我的室友都说:“ur bf so clever...”
我暗爽。。。哈哈!!
我数学拿了47/50。。
我容许这一分来证明他是我的数学老师。。。
若没有他,我的数学可能就当机了。。。

希望ups我们都可以一起拿4flat...

加油加油!!


-蘑菇-

Friday, July 9, 2010

J & J

一个月纪念日的小黑。。。
交往的第一只小熊。。。

我们要一直走下去。。。
加油加油!!!
4 flat 4 flat~



-蘑菇-

Thursday, July 8, 2010



越来越没有想写部落格的心情,原因:我有小黄当我的垃圾桶兼出气包。。。
还没开始写部落格前,常常会想: 我要写这个这个。。。
不过,开始了,我又懒惰形容两个星期里所发生的点点滴滴。。。

这星期,我连续两天在班上大哭。。。
第一次:bio老师本来说星期三才给我们小考。。所以,星期二,我只需要专注我的chemistry and maths...那知,星期二的bio tutorial老师换人,突然要给我们小考。。。我们每个都没准备。。。我拿到考卷的当下真想撞墙自尽算了!! 我真的不喜欢自己没尽力,就拿不好成绩。。。
我有种感觉自己这个小考可能会不及格,因为我真的从头到尾有种:“我学过这个哦?”的感觉。。。
所以,就一边考试,一边哭。。。唉~

第二次:bio老师。。。有是那个新老师,她在班上讨论题目,要我们一个一个回答问题。。。结果,问到我时,因为那题目我还没做,我不知道答案,所以,我老实的说我不会,结果。。。老师竟然要我罚站!! 曾几何时我没再听到罚站这词。。。
我真的很彷徨。。。忍不住眼泪就留了下来。。。。
之后,我越站,就哭得越够力。。。
因为我突然觉得班上的人真的很自私。。。carmen除外,因为她也没做,不过,却拼命帮我找答案。。。
不想那些性马的,they have already finished sorting the questions...with answers in front of them, none of them even bother to give me the answer...everyone seems like not knowing or mayb they purposely rejected my S.O.S....
Thinking back how i have treated them for the past 1 month, when they got bad results, i became the teacher, taught them chemistry for 2 hours that very night in library....
When they need help in homework, i let them copied...
Even during topical quiz, cos they got really bad results for the 1st topical quiz, so teacher held another quiz right on the next day...
As teacher was not there, i was appointed to be the leader, to collect all the quiz paper...
There, i finished my quiz test really early and helped them questions by questions, ensuring everyone got at least 20 and above(over 30 marks) for that quiz....
Now, i only need a small help, no even bother to look at me....Noone even bother to whisper the answers....Noone at all!!!
Not that i helped them for a grant....
I just hoped i can get their help when i really need them, like in this incident...
Every students passingby, will look at me, how embarrassed i am....T.T

Anyway, i'm really disappointed with them...
Although like that, next time if they need help, i will still help them...
Cos for me, if i noe, if i've finished my work, y cant i lend them my hand?
It's up to them on how to return tis care back to me...
Not much hope, but without this incident, it would b more perfect...=)

小黄很可爱。。。一个这么大男人主义的男生,竟然会跑去刻我们的名字在手链上。。。超贴心的。。。我也很感动。。。
感谢他每次每次都作我的小佣人。。。帮我买食物 ,帮我提包包。。我哭时,还利用休息时间,到lab外面等我,就为了让我不哭。。。谢谢他。。。

pre ups maths quiz真的很难。。。
今天参观了ukm,所以没有考。。。
老师说,我们补考的会更难,完蛋了~!
没有carmen在身边, 超没安全感的。。。


加油蘑菇!!


-蘑菇-