Regret.

I was in terribly bad mood today.

Night.

I called sis to take away some snacks for me.

I'm angry so, I eat.

I eat so, I'm angry.

Digest this.

I looked just like a kids at home, no wonder they said I did not grow up.

Well, who wants to grow up if everything's so complicated in adults but remains simply when you're just a lil kids?

Lok Lok.

Cheezy Wedges.

You Cha Kueh with milk.

I feel guilty.

I said many things badly today.

I regretted so much.

First, not worth it to make God angry if I was angry over "that" particular stuff and person.

Second, I regretted again, 1 hour ago.

I said something which makes other misunderstand and it really feels bad for feeling bad after hurting someone whereby you thought it should be okay and fair.

Then the next thing I realised, I was the one who was not worth being saved.

I doubted whether I should be baptised next Sunday.

I never doubted the trust and faith I have in God.

But, there's hatred in my heart that I couldn't let go.

And, worst of all, I did not pray to God to let me forgive and forget these, simply because I wanted to remember how hateful I feel towards that... And, maybe, the evil spirit in me, hoping to give it a revenge.

I'm so in sins.

I so regretted.

I did not know how to let go.

It seems unfair when I, myself try to let go, but the other side, it gets worse and as a Christian, I have to bear with it.

I know if I pray, I could.

But, I really did not want to back down so easily.

I'm not as forgiving as Jesus and Lord.

Then, I regretted for having all these thoughts captured me again.

And, on the other incident, I regretted because it hurts to hurt.

Sorry.

Regrets.

Signed off,

-Mogu-